So I've been pondering about where to even start this post and exactly what it is that I would talk about...I've decided to start with the past couple of days and move backwards as my memory...well let's just say its not so good some days when I've been multi-tasking my multi tasks!
Sweet hubs complained on Tues eve about some "chest pain" but convinced me that it was muscular, so although I am a nurse and and well aware regarding chest pain that "IF YOU DON'T KNOW...THEN GO!" I gave him a pain pill and a muscle relaxer and he and both of the animals were snoring in & around the bed by 10:00 pm, whilst I worked on my laptop until well after Midnight...see said animals below...along with said King size bed minus 2 people and 1 cat...ha ha
About 4:45 am hubs was woke up by pain in his left shoulder, back, & chest and was miserable enough that I convinced him we needed to go to ER...so we both got dressed, teeth brushed and all...but then he said..." No I think I will be ok." I had a very busy day ahead of me at work so I selfishly allowed him to go off to our business and I went off to work...all day hoping that he was fine.
Now let me start my side story if I may...while driving home, to Sandy Creek that is, as I never actually made it home until very late... and was extremely exhausted from awakening so early...I called a friend who has been having a rough time lately to check in...convo ended and although I worry about her I thought everything was fine between us. I got to Sandy Creek and saw that dear hubs was still in a great deal of pain so shut the store down early and off we went to the hospital where I ended up being until about 11:30 pm. When I got home I noticed that my friend had called so I texted and asked if all was ok but got no reply. I had to go out early this morning to open our business and then be at the hospital as Trick had to have a stress test and while I was sitting in his room waiting, I again tried to reach my friend but no answer...a few mins later I received a very hurtful and distressing phone call from her husband accusing me of "talking" about them yesterday eve...when in fact I had talked to no one...as you can read above I was a little busy and wouldn't do that anyways! So this is where I am and I know many of you have posted about similar situations...I have to let go of this friendship and it hurts deeply!...but I have been the one who has tried to keep it alive now for years and I simply do not have the strength or energy any longer...and honestly after today no longer have the desire. I will continue, and I ask you as well, to pray for my friend in her hour of need. I felt the "old me" rise up in anger and wanted to lash back and say if you don't want people to "talk" then don't give them something to talk about... BUT I am trying so hard and it is a daily stuggle and lesson...to learn to lean on Jesus in the good times and the bad... like my dear blog friend Paige or Lissa who's testimonies inspire me daily... or like Jess who touches so many she doesn't even know....I was also disappointed by someone else's seemingly lack of compassion for me today and let that get to me...and then felt weary as I was advising my sweet and beautiful daugher about her disappointments in the "working world"...and heartbroken, sad, and helpless to change a situation that one of my family members is suffering... but as I have been weepy and tired today the Lord has given me the words to a few songs and I have been singing them all day...
The world will try to satisfy that longing in your soul, you may search the wide world 'oer but you'll be just as before, you'll never find true satisfaction until you've found the Lord, for only JESUS can really satisfy your soul
(Lesson being for me to get my eyes off of people because they are just that...people.. and not perfect and will disappoint..but HE is perfect)
Broken and beautiful, come just as you are, surrender your heart, broken and beautiful
(Lesson being that even when the "old me" tries to take over or messes up HE still takes me back Just As I Am and that I just need to surrender)
His strength is perfect, when our strength is gone, He'll carry you, when you can't carry on, raised in HIS power the weak become strong
(Lesson being I need to quit trying to be self sufficient and allow HIM to be ALL SUFFICIENT!)
Anyways, back to hubs...Praise the Lord he did not have a heart attack and at this point it looks to be something musculoskeletal, probably from lifting 1000# beef...go figure!! He got out of the hospital earlier this afternoon and just awoke from a 3 hour nap which I know he very much needed! (see him & his best friend in the whole world above) This man works very hard (physically& mentally) and NEVER complains! He will be having a few more tests over the next couple of weeks regarding some other possible health issues so we covet your prayers!
Going backwards...I had a little Miss America party with Ash, my sis, & my Mom last Saturday so we could watch Miss WV of whom we are terribly proud! I am especially proud of her talent and choice of song and it is well worth a listen...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FjmE9Mz53vM...pay special attention to the first few words that she chose to sing... Ash & Tal grew up together and were roomies Sr. Year at UC. Anyways, Mom decided I needed to build a fire in my newly done fireplace...well, hubs wasn't here and apparently I did NOT have the damper completly open because about 10 mins into the fire my entire house filled up with smoke within a matter of a minute...had to get the burning logs out and in the process burned a hole in my fairly new rug from Ballards...it was rather dramatic but thank goodness its only a rug!!! ....could've been a lot worse...so now my sister says we had a Miss America CAMPFIRE! ha ha...Ash made these lovely red velvet cupcakes which we, not Button, enjoyed in spite of the smoke!
This is getting long so for those of you who only read to keep up with Cinderella's quickly approaching wedding here is some of the latest...I won't go into details...but I will say that not having my dear sweet friend, Mr. R's mom, around for all of this has been just downright awful at times! I miss her terribly!!
Invites are supposed to arrive here tomorrow so we will be getting those in the mail...I or Ash will try to post you a pretty pic of them soon. Also some other goodies arrived this week...bridesmaid's totes lovingly handmade by Jeanne Oliver...you can shop her "pretties here http://www.etsy.com/shop/abushelandapeck
Maybe this will make you giggle, as I did, sorry to embarass you honey, but I have to share...when sweetness asked what the hanging ribbons on all the pillows were for??? ha ha...
I explained...to tie the rings with...since after all that is the purpose of this item! Sometimes her innocence cracks me up! :)
Little Miss has been busy in my basement on weekends when she is home... restoring furniture for her new nest!
Well this needs to come to an end so I leave you with this view that I have seen far too many days lately from my kitchen window!
Oh Summer how I long for thee!
Love to All!
xo
